His hair released, part of Atsushi wants to back up too, but his body is in no state to move, and emotionally he's still an even worse mess than usual. He shivers but stays on his knees the way he landed - until Akutagawa reveals his rapidly-regrowing problem, and the sheer mortification of it gets him rock hard all over again. His world seems to stop. He's sure that everyone can see him like this, that everyone in this entire world now may have seen him and will forever judge him for it.
Kicked over, he wishes he could curl in on himself again, but Akutagawa steps on him again once he's flat on his face, and that's the end of that. With his erection now pressing against the hard ground, it's more painful than before. Atsushi tries not to sob too loudly. That, at least, is a skill he's perfected since long ago, though the way his shoulders move up and down as he lies there still makes it pretty obvious what he's doing. (Then again, he could be trying to escape Akutagawa's foot. Theoretically.)
Whatever Akutagawa means with 'the effects of this place', Atsushi can only agree that he's a terrible person, if a person at all, and he's definitely not worthy of anyone. But while he thoroughly agrees with Akutagawa on something for a change, it's only afterwards that he starts to wonder who, in particular, Akutagawa was even talking about. It's a strange sort of distraction in the haze of his current mindset, but even in this state, of course it doesn't take long at all to figure out.
"Dazai-san..?" Always a good idea to mention that name, clearly. Maybe Atsushi is just desperate to cling to that familiar person, his familiar strength and support.
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Kicked over, he wishes he could curl in on himself again, but Akutagawa steps on him again once he's flat on his face, and that's the end of that. With his erection now pressing against the hard ground, it's more painful than before. Atsushi tries not to sob too loudly. That, at least, is a skill he's perfected since long ago, though the way his shoulders move up and down as he lies there still makes it pretty obvious what he's doing. (Then again, he could be trying to escape Akutagawa's foot. Theoretically.)
Whatever Akutagawa means with 'the effects of this place', Atsushi can only agree that he's a terrible person, if a person at all, and he's definitely not worthy of anyone. But while he thoroughly agrees with Akutagawa on something for a change, it's only afterwards that he starts to wonder who, in particular, Akutagawa was even talking about. It's a strange sort of distraction in the haze of his current mindset, but even in this state, of course it doesn't take long at all to figure out.
"Dazai-san..?" Always a good idea to mention that name, clearly. Maybe Atsushi is just desperate to cling to that familiar person, his familiar strength and support.