[Why did Lilia have to be so perceptive? Why did so many people in his life, these days, have to be so conscious of his deceptions? It made everything so much harder, when he couldn't lie his way out of being emotionally vulnerable. Things were bad enough with Idia and Silver--he already relied so much on them. If he let anyone else in...how could he possibly take it?]
I'm thriving, remember?
[Cater sighs, smile falling. Maybe if he was new to Duplicity, he'd fight harder. Lately, he just hasn't had nearly as much of it in him.]
I've been here for nearly a year, I've adjusted. You just saw a hiccup, that's all. I didn't think it would happen, either. Now I know I'm not ready for bondage again, yet.
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[Why did Lilia have to be so perceptive? Why did so many people in his life, these days, have to be so conscious of his deceptions? It made everything so much harder, when he couldn't lie his way out of being emotionally vulnerable. Things were bad enough with Idia and Silver--he already relied so much on them. If he let anyone else in...how could he possibly take it?]
I'm thriving, remember?
[Cater sighs, smile falling. Maybe if he was new to Duplicity, he'd fight harder. Lately, he just hasn't had nearly as much of it in him.]
I've been here for nearly a year, I've adjusted. You just saw a hiccup, that's all. I didn't think it would happen, either. Now I know I'm not ready for bondage again, yet.