[He's been keeping most of this inside, because the things he's allowed to slip have caused so much trouble for his loved ones. Grieving for Idia and confessing to Cater have triggered problems, and even allowing himself to be lost in the heat of vengeance for Cater's maiming will likely bring retribution down the line. He held back valiantly, but every dam reaches its breaking point, every diamond shatters when struck just so. Despite Lilia's words, right now Silver doesn't feel as if he's grown or will grow, he simply hurts.
So he weeps, clutching Lilia's smaller frame desperately. He loses track of time as the tears continue and Lilia hums for him and his head aches, until finally all of Silver's strength is gone. His face blotchy and wet, his nose stuffy, eyes puffed and red, he barely resembles the stoic knight he's known to be. His voice comes out thick, quiet, and broken, the voice of a traumatized child blaming himself for all the ills of the world.]
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So he weeps, clutching Lilia's smaller frame desperately. He loses track of time as the tears continue and Lilia hums for him and his head aches, until finally all of Silver's strength is gone. His face blotchy and wet, his nose stuffy, eyes puffed and red, he barely resembles the stoic knight he's known to be. His voice comes out thick, quiet, and broken, the voice of a traumatized child blaming himself for all the ills of the world.]
... it's all my fault....