[her tears finally stop flowing and she does her best to wipe away their remains with her hand. honestly, over the past few days she's been crying so much, she feels like her eyes are sore. they're probably at least red-rimmed and the thought of such a visible indication of her emotional state makes her flush. then she curses herself for blushing so easily.
but at least she doesn't have to actually act like a dominant. hitting someone to inflict pain. the very notion makes her wince and brings back the painful memory of the now healed welts on her rear, inflicted by Christian at his most dominant]
Good. Thank you for telling me. I don't know what I would've done if you hadn't.
[but the news about the quota has her inwardly quailing. she'd never even wanted to have sex until she met Christian and fell in love with him. now she's being expected to do it three times a month with men she didn't love? her inner goddess keels over in a dead faint]
How do I do that? Do they have mixers or parties where people can--can become comfortable with one another? [and the mention of punishment makes her shudder with unpleasant memories] What do they do to people there?
(cw: poor bdsm practices)
but at least she doesn't have to actually act like a dominant. hitting someone to inflict pain. the very notion makes her wince and brings back the painful memory of the now healed welts on her rear, inflicted by Christian at his most dominant]
Good. Thank you for telling me. I don't know what I would've done if you hadn't.
[but the news about the quota has her inwardly quailing. she'd never even wanted to have sex until she met Christian and fell in love with him. now she's being expected to do it three times a month with men she didn't love? her inner goddess keels over in a dead faint]
How do I do that? Do they have mixers or parties where people can--can become comfortable with one another? [and the mention of punishment makes her shudder with unpleasant memories] What do they do to people there?