[ And he'd probably give her all those definitions and then some, most of which he's guessing she's never even heard of — and it's a surreal feeling, knowing that he's had time to learn all of these things and remembering that as of right now, at the point in time she's likely been plucked up from, she doesn't know any of it.
He hadn't asked questions the first time they'd ever been together, because he hadn't felt like it was any of his business to learn the details about who she went to for that initial experience before they'd found each other — but he can feel his pulse quickening slightly when he has the stark realization that it would be her first all over again, and he can't really bear the idea of her going to anyone else for it. ]
So you want me to —
[ It's his turn to breathe, slow and understanding, and he doesn't want to leave her with the impression that he isn't taking this seriously — that if she's asking, really and truly asking, he wouldn't hesitate to give her anything she wanted. ]
I would. But not just... so you know. [ Because he needs to make that part clear, even as he can feel the heat creeping up the back of his neck all the way up to his ears. ] Because you deserve — because you're my friend, and... I love you.
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[ And he'd probably give her all those definitions and then some, most of which he's guessing she's never even heard of — and it's a surreal feeling, knowing that he's had time to learn all of these things and remembering that as of right now, at the point in time she's likely been plucked up from, she doesn't know any of it.
He hadn't asked questions the first time they'd ever been together, because he hadn't felt like it was any of his business to learn the details about who she went to for that initial experience before they'd found each other — but he can feel his pulse quickening slightly when he has the stark realization that it would be her first all over again, and he can't really bear the idea of her going to anyone else for it. ]
So you want me to —
[ It's his turn to breathe, slow and understanding, and he doesn't want to leave her with the impression that he isn't taking this seriously — that if she's asking, really and truly asking, he wouldn't hesitate to give her anything she wanted. ]
I would. But not just... so you know. [ Because he needs to make that part clear, even as he can feel the heat creeping up the back of his neck all the way up to his ears. ] Because you deserve — because you're my friend, and... I love you.