Like it was a dream, almost, yes. I don't know how to describe it - I was... unsettled.

[at the time he had put it down perhaps to just having an 'off' day. In hindsight, it makes perfect sense.]

But now that I'm here I'm... relieved.

[though that in itself is confusing, even as he holds onto Cyril's hand. Is relief the right thing to feel, being back in a place like this?]