[Adam winces. He knows he could leave this for orientation. He could let them share all of this with Gansey and then try and pick up the pieces afterwards. Except he can't bring himself to let that happen to Gansey. Sure they had their fights and there were things they would never see eye to eye on, but this is something else entirely and he deserves to have someone there to help him with it.
Even when his tone changes and there's that part of Adam that could just let the fight happen. It would be easier than wanting to somehow become Gansey's protector. As if he needs that. Even if his very first thought was to tell Gansey he'd contract with him, settle it right then and there. It's not his place though. No matter the position this city put him in. Not unless it was wanted.
So easy to let the fight happen and leave him to orientation doing this. Except he sees the signs of the panic attacks, the anxiety that troubled Gansey. He sighs, taking him by the shoulder and steering him away from the sidewalk, pushing him gently toward a low wall. He moves to sit down, hoping Gansey will follow.]
Okay, first I need you to breathe. You're going to be okay, Gansey. You're right though. It shouldn't be easy to say but mostly I've only known it second hand. I've heard about it. It's never happened to me here. Not really.
[Sure he knew he had been likely dosed the night he slept with Persephone but he'd been into her before that and he couldn't be sure. It's not been a bad experience like he's heard of from others.]
But I don't want it to happen to me, and I don't want it to happen to you. I stand it because I have to, Gansey. For myself. For Ronan and Noah. What choice is there?
[Which is what it comes down to, though he doesn't get into the rest until he's sure Gansey is calm.]
It's not okay. It's awful. But its where we are, and it's ... When you've spent your life doing whatever you have to so you survive? You learn to keep surviving, Gansey and no matter what? I need you to learn to survive.
[Gansey's never had to before. Not like this. It's his learning curve now and Adam is going to make sure he catches on quick.]
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Even when his tone changes and there's that part of Adam that could just let the fight happen. It would be easier than wanting to somehow become Gansey's protector. As if he needs that. Even if his very first thought was to tell Gansey he'd contract with him, settle it right then and there. It's not his place though. No matter the position this city put him in. Not unless it was wanted.
So easy to let the fight happen and leave him to orientation doing this. Except he sees the signs of the panic attacks, the anxiety that troubled Gansey. He sighs, taking him by the shoulder and steering him away from the sidewalk, pushing him gently toward a low wall. He moves to sit down, hoping Gansey will follow.]
Okay, first I need you to breathe. You're going to be okay, Gansey. You're right though. It shouldn't be easy to say but mostly I've only known it second hand. I've heard about it. It's never happened to me here. Not really.
[Sure he knew he had been likely dosed the night he slept with Persephone but he'd been into her before that and he couldn't be sure. It's not been a bad experience like he's heard of from others.]
But I don't want it to happen to me, and I don't want it to happen to you. I stand it because I have to, Gansey. For myself. For Ronan and Noah. What choice is there?
[Which is what it comes down to, though he doesn't get into the rest until he's sure Gansey is calm.]
It's not okay. It's awful. But its where we are, and it's ... When you've spent your life doing whatever you have to so you survive? You learn to keep surviving, Gansey and no matter what? I need you to learn to survive.
[Gansey's never had to before. Not like this. It's his learning curve now and Adam is going to make sure he catches on quick.]