She shakes her head practically in time with him, raising a finger in warning.
"Don't do that, Guerin," she says. Her voice is mild, restrained, but firm. "Don't turn me into something I'm not. I'm the same Maria that you've always known. I didn't magically become something else just because we discovered this."
She licks her lips. "I made you happy before this was a thing. Don't make me think I could have made you happier by being other than myself."
She licks her lips again, ducking her head a little, wishing she had tequila. It's not that the conversation is hard exactly, but it's a lot to go through again and she's still not sure what she makes of it all.
"You were. You-- That necklace? Of my mom's that she gave to me." The one she never took off before she knew. "It's this flower that is really rare, but the pollen dampens and protects again you guys' powers. Like, Isobel couldn't enter my mind while I wore it. It would have kept my mom... in place, you know what I mean? But I gave it to Rosa because she was having issues.." She waves her hand. Another long story.
"And you made me this bracelet instead, with the same pollen. You wanted me safe, not... wandering, eventually, like my mom. I wore it for the most part and didn't think about it. But now I'm thinking..."
It's hard to know what to do. It's hard to know what she wants to do, because it's all so strange. She's allowed to take back what she said before, she thinks.
"I'm thinking I need to accept this. What I am. So it's like I'm starting fresh."
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"Don't do that, Guerin," she says. Her voice is mild, restrained, but firm. "Don't turn me into something I'm not. I'm the same Maria that you've always known. I didn't magically become something else just because we discovered this."
She licks her lips. "I made you happy before this was a thing. Don't make me think I could have made you happier by being other than myself."
She licks her lips again, ducking her head a little, wishing she had tequila. It's not that the conversation is hard exactly, but it's a lot to go through again and she's still not sure what she makes of it all.
"You were. You-- That necklace? Of my mom's that she gave to me." The one she never took off before she knew. "It's this flower that is really rare, but the pollen dampens and protects again you guys' powers. Like, Isobel couldn't enter my mind while I wore it. It would have kept my mom... in place, you know what I mean? But I gave it to Rosa because she was having issues.." She waves her hand. Another long story.
"And you made me this bracelet instead, with the same pollen. You wanted me safe, not... wandering, eventually, like my mom. I wore it for the most part and didn't think about it. But now I'm thinking..."
It's hard to know what to do. It's hard to know what she wants to do, because it's all so strange. She's allowed to take back what she said before, she thinks.
"I'm thinking I need to accept this. What I am. So it's like I'm starting fresh."