[ he pops the latter portion of the word petulantly, as if he's proud of the fact that he's remained out of contract just yet. he's not ready for that, whatever this city wants. sure, rafa has found peace with contracting with someone, and gwen's able to keep her house in the up because of the contract she maintains with her dom, but tris can't bring himself to find someone he wants to "submit" to.
even if it's... fake or whatever.
the thought makes his skin crawl. there's a difference to the word here - kneeling submissives on the train, people used as tables at orientation. the way they'd brought him on stage (and sure the oral was nice, but being watched like a spectacle? well. he doesn't mind being watched, but not so clinically.)
he wets his lips briefly, searching for the words to continue. he doesn't even have a drink to excuse himself for sounding dumb. dammit. ]
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[ he pops the latter portion of the word petulantly, as if he's proud of the fact that he's remained out of contract just yet. he's not ready for that, whatever this city wants. sure, rafa has found peace with contracting with someone, and gwen's able to keep her house in the up because of the contract she maintains with her dom, but tris can't bring himself to find someone he wants to "submit" to.
even if it's... fake or whatever.
the thought makes his skin crawl. there's a difference to the word here - kneeling submissives on the train, people used as tables at orientation. the way they'd brought him on stage (and sure the oral was nice, but being watched like a spectacle? well. he doesn't mind being watched, but not so clinically.)
he wets his lips briefly, searching for the words to continue. he doesn't even have a drink to excuse himself for sounding dumb. dammit. ]
If I don't have to be, then I won't.
[ even if time's ticking. ]